my life ; a mess

No one told us that growing up is gonna be this hard. Things were going up pretty well till I cleared my senior secondary.Studying,playing around, roaming around, pranking people, crushing on maths teacher, running away from school was so much better, BUT WELCOME TO THE REAL WORLD.IT SUCKS BUT YOU ARE GONNA LOVE IT.The tables have turned now. I used to be a happy-go-lucky girl,who did not give a damn about anything that did not mean important to her. But now everything and anything existing on this planet is bothering me.The worst part is that the only thing that is not bothering me is myself.

One fine day(was it really a fine day?) someone abused me and what I simply did was to cry endlessly instead of coming back with a befitting and savage reply. The very other day the same guy called me back and I like an emotional idiot picked up the call, getting more of abuses in return. And for your kind attention I am still waiting for his call. Do I even deserve to exist????

But I had enough of all this mess. I want to clear all of this clutter in my life. I wanna get rid of all those people,things,emotions that are holding me back. Or to put it in a better way I shall be trying to rebuild myself, to get the old self back ,who is not bothered by all of this.

From today(or maybe tomorrow:)),I will embark on a journey to become a better of version of myself. I will be reading more books, will be learning from people around me, will be more positive(ye hota kya hai),will be exploring everything around me, will be prioritizing myself. And you all be very glad to know that you all will be a part of this journey(even if you don't want to).IT IS A BIG DEAL for all of you.

let's grow together :)